my husband and I are not getting along. I am not always easy to deal with. Neither is he. If things don't work out between us I need to have a plan. I don't want to end up homeless. My name is not on the lease. This is his apartment. Technically he could throw me out and then what would I do. It isn't easy, being a woman. I need love and attention so often. It is the life force and it is one of the most important things there is. Many people do not seem to understand this. I am so miserable right now. My life is a terrible strain on me. It seems that everyone else is enjoying themselves, while I am stuck in a trap from which I can not escape. It's much easier to move down than up as we all know. Our life together is a challenge. The solace that I got through work is gone. It is a difficult industry, the childcare industry that I work in. I am a mule, but when a mule no longer has work what does the mule do. That is the decision I am currently faced with.